Book1:TeDream-Maker
书迷正在阅读:会所裙下客 , 娇生灌养 , 【他与它】【暗空保护区】np人马 万事归空 , 礼物 , 猩红王座【双性/人外/强强/君臣主仆】 , 【乡野田间的秘密】高H,总受 , 快穿之往事梦回 , 我的meimei有点奇怪(兄妹|尿恋) , 星星入我怀(出轨h) , 纳尼亚的危机 , 仙云客栈 , 和前男友搞黄被抓之后
Onweekends,theywouldetothedormandtrytodatemeandIkewasohem.AtfirstIdidn’tpayatentiontohim,butonedayIfoundoutthathisloveformewastrue.Thatm,quiteafewofmybeauxturnedupandIdecidedtokeepthemwaitingandseehowmany,ifany,couldpassthetestofpatieupforthem.Oeraheygotimpatientofwaitinga,untilintheend,aftereighthours,onlyIkeremained.Hesatiingroomofthedorm,writingouthisnewporarycssiposition,whichhededicatedtome,soengrossedandiinhisworkthathelosttraeandsurroundings.Nimblefingersflewoverthewoodentableasifitiaowingtheinanimateobjectwithartisticpowers.Hummingandpying,hewouldstoptowriteoutafewbarsormakecorreswheupouneorhattune,writtenonthedayIdecidedtotestmybeaux,washisfirstpresenttome.He’sbeenwonit,revisingit,foralongtimeandtonighthebroughtmehishand-writtenpositionasapartinggiftinmemoryofourmarriage.We’vebeenseparatedforooseehowwestandaherdivorceistheonlywayout.Ilovehimandstillkeephispicturewithmeallthetime,butIkethinksweshouldendourmarriage.”ShetookoffthelocketandwhichsheworearoundhernedhaoDimitri,saying "That’shim."Dimitriopehelocketandlookedatthesmallpictureinside.Hewasahandsomemanwithintelligent,-cutfeatures,mencholyblueeyesdeepastheseaandfulloflove.Hisartistidhairwaslybedandhewascasuallydressedinanavy-blueturtlenecksweater. Eliohestoryoftheirromandmarriageinalow,pensivevoice.Aftershefoundouttheextentofhistrueloveforher,Elinafellheadoverheelsinlove.Shehadthisstrangefeelingthatshehadknownhimbeforeforalongtimeandknownhimwell.Everymovementcouldbringresoheyplungedheadlonginte.SheknewbeforehermarriagethatIkeotent,butshedidn’tcare.Shethoughtthatloveandlustweretwopletelydifferentthingsandshehadmarriedforlove.Butastimepassed,shegraduallybecameawareofsomethingmissing.Trueandpureastheirlovewas,itwasonlyamirage,gthedown-to-earthloveoftheflesh.Shecouldnolongerbesatisfiedwithansthesizeofalittlefinger.Ikeuoodandcametothepainfuldecisionthatitwasunnaturaltodenyherhealthybody.Heallowedhertohaveaffairswithothermen.Atfirst,Elinaagreed,buteverytimeshecamebackafterferociousandtempestuouslove-making,herhungerfullysatisfied,shewasstruckwithasenseofguiltandremorse.ThepaininIke’seyes,whichhetriedsohardtoceal,waslikeakuherheart.Theyfellintoeachothersarms,g.Therepetitionofthissebecameanightmareuntiltheyfeltthattotihisretionshipwascrueltobothofthemanddecidedonseparatioheirfeelings.Theypartedamicably,stillverymulove,andtonightIketoldherhisdecision—divorce.Elihathermarriagewasnotamistake;herwasherdivorce.Loveandlustcouldbeseparate.Loveiritualintercoursebetweentwopeople.EverytimeshewaswithIkeaaloveforhim,itbroughtitsownfulfillment,pleteinitself,withouttheneedforphysitimacy;justasapletelysatisfyingsexualintercoursesometimeshasnoneedforspirituallove.Elinasattherelookinglostandpensive. 5 "Duringtheyearofseparation,ImyeyesonanothermanbecauseIwaoremainfaithfultoIke,eventhoughheallowedmetohaveaffairs.YouseeIstilllovehim,orIwouldn’tkeephispictureomyheart.Buttrarytomyexpectations,Ikehasgedpletelyduringthisyearofseparationintothegaymanyoujustsaw.Todayheotonlytotellmeofhisdecis